Good Night....Sweet Dreams

I slept around 5.30am today and woke about 3 hours later. That has been the ritual for me this last month. Sometimes I didn’t sleep at all. I am having trouble sleeping they call it insomnia. Gone are the days where I can just sleep after 5 minutes I put my head on the pillow.Oh….how do I miss those days. Now, I can’t even force myself to sleep no matter what I do.

I tried counting sheeps but after the 1000 times jumping over the fence, the sheep got tired but I wasn’t. Jessica Alba took over from the sheep but man...the thought of Jessica Alba jumping over a fence..... Well, I don’t think any guy would even want to go to sleep with that image in his head. In the end, I would end up staring at the ceiling in the dark trying to figure out the best way for me to go to sleep. I would hit my pillow to make it much comfy. I would change my sleeping position and even going to the extreme of changing my “sleeping uniform”.

The funny thing is I have never felt sleepy during the day. Not a single bone in my body ache for a nice fluffy pillow and a drowning Dreamland mattress. I don’t have any problems waking up in the morning. It will be 8am sharp. No problem. A few weeks ago I was afraid that I would not be able to keep my eyes opened till the end of the day but somehow keeping it closed was more of a problem. The first few days when my sleeping problem haunted me, I was rushing back from work just to try getting some sleep before Maghrib. Instead of sleeping, I end up watching cartoons or Chinese drama that would be showing on TV. After that, I just quit and fill that time by working out at the gym and also my futsal game.

Am I too tired? Am I stressed? Am I thinking too much? Those are the reasons that I have heard that might cause insomnia but I don’t think I am experiencing any of that. I wish it was one of those so I don’t have to figure out what and why I am not sleeping. I just miss sleeping and maybe a dream or two or even now a nightmare will do. It is so frustrating not being able to give ur body and mind a deserved rest after a hectic day at the office. Something is wrong but I just don’t know what the problem is.

Not being able to sleep, in an empty dark apartment without any satellite TV is not fun…trust me. After failing to go to sleep, trying to think of a fun and best way to let the time pass that early in the morning is a task on its own. Reading a book, watching DVDs, listening to the radio, singing to the song on the radio, entering sms contest on the radio….all of that I have tried for the past month. Sometimes…well almost every night I would just amuse myself by interviewing myself….sounds nuts I know but when u are still awake at 4.30am and not knowing what else to do, it is fun imagining urself as the Oscar winner for Best Director, scored the winning goal that won United the Champions’ League and sometimes as the new man in Jessica Alba’s life…..and the list goes on and on and on…like the Energizer batteries.

Despite of all that crazy fun, I still want my sleep. I still want that pillow face when u wake up in the morning. I still want that sensational smell when u open ur mouth for the first time in the morning. I still want to complete the continent of Africa on my pillow. Jokes aside, I miss waking up fresh and rested after a good night sleep. It has been a long time since I can say I had a good night sleep and had a truly rested body. I am still feeling ok now and I hope for my own health sake, I can get back my sleeping routine.

Till then, I have to come up with new questions and also new characters for my “The Early Morning Show With The Red Raven……Huak…Huak…..”