I received a mail from a friend. Lost contact for a while but masa balik cuti raya recently, jumpa balik. So we exchange mails and phone no cos we met pun by chance aje. So takde lah we like talk lama and ask about what we are doing now and things but just told him that I am working in KL now.
He mailed me a few days ago just to say hi and also what he have been doing for the past one year I guess. Telling me how life have change for him and he have finally gotten a job that he loves. He enjoys his work and the company. The pay is quite good also so that makes him even happier. His life has finally works the way he wants and plans it to be. A good job & position, he bought a house recently, a cool car…he is living his life…he life is just perfect right now.
Makes me think…what is a perfect life? What if your life did not turn out like what u dream or plan? Would that make your life less perfect? Would that make you a failure in life?
I don’t like my job(hate is a strong word u know) and still searching for something I really would enjoy, I live alone in a rented apartment; my car, well, I am still hoping that one day I will be a proud owner of a BMW or at least a Mazda 3 or 6 series. does that mean that I am living my life as a failure….I know a lot of people have the same feelings…does that make my or your life less perfect?
I stop pitying myself a long time ago…I stop sulking over what is not happening and what I don’t have now…well, I still do it sometimes but people who loves me and cares about me – my family, friends and of course my significant other- always reminds me that I do have a perfect life. I have them in my life to love me, to care for me. So I just wanna tell you about the people in my life that made my life better than it could have ever been.
Me and my dad, we are not exactly talking buddies, well, he talks a lot, I don’t, and I listen most of the time… hahahaha …..He may not say I love you but I know he does with his constant reminder of my responsibilities as a Muslim….” Sembahyang jangan di lupak….dah tua and nak berbini ya….camne nak jadi ketua keluarga mun sik nunai tanggungjawab dirik pun” (anyone needs a translation..heheheh)…ohhh….and also reminding me about my car loan payment….always slips my mind…..hehehehehe
My mom….hmmmm…what can I say about this amazing lady. I love her so much. A soft spoken woman, don’t talk much….and her health…hmmm…I just hope I can at least repay what she have done for me all this time…just a simple sms saying hi and how I miss her is enough to make her happy……
My grandma…she took care of me when I was a child, I was sleeping with her and my late grandpa till I was 5 or 6…being the 1st grandchild, I am always a bit manja with her and till now, she will always kiss my cheeks when she sees me. I was her loyal partner whenever she needs to go to the market…masa kecik2…we use the bus, now I drive her..but her health is a worry now…and her wish “ Jangan lamak gilak bujang, ingin mak nek(that’s what I call her) nangga kau atas pelamin”….Insya Allah, I will make her wish come true sooner rather than later…..
My sisters….well….those two are special ladies…they are gonna make any guy happy….hahahaha….
Hanim with her Korean and Japanese movies (so guys who have looks like a Korean actor, u are in with a chance..hahaha)…she is always in her room with her books, novels, DVDs, cds, astro…I don’t think she ever goes out for a date….I do hope she find a guy…a good guy…..I have a say in that right? Always gracious and always there to help (my personal bank sometimes…mak asih Nim)……
Yaya…oopppss….Camy I mean…she’s the youngest but she never acted like one…sometimes I think she is more matured than Hanim…and she is 10 years younger than me….me and her, we are like best friend….we get along really really well…and we support the same football team…Glory Glory United right….but this one, sensitive giler….hahahaha…so be careful with what u say to her…she might be offended u know…but she is my lil sis….crazy giler kat Kaer…and this year she actually met Kaer by chance when she was her in KL….she call me at once when she met him..hahahahaha…and also when she wants to know the game result….
My two brothers…..hmmm…..we don’t talk…we only talk to each other when we need to…Razi is the strong quiet type, don’t say much and when he is angry, he is even quieter….strange boy but when he is with his friends….it is like a 180 change, he is this loud, joke cracking guy…loves to colour his hair…he dyed it a bit too red sometime ago…and a bit purple if I am not mistaken…crazy guy I tell u…
Iwan…well…his a family man now…the first in the family, got a boy call Rifki…didn’t agree with what he did till now, hard to forgive but his my brother….and I just hope and pray he just grow up cepat sikit and get mature sikit cos he got a family and a son to take care….just stop with your car modification craze and take care of the family…..
Friends…hmmm…..I don’t have a lot but the one I have, they are special to me…..
Awang, hmmm….trying to make an appointment to lepak with this guy is harder than making appointment with the Sarawak CM maybe, a very perasan guy who always thinks the girls are checking him out….Sorry pok, they are actually checking out the guy behind u or beside u (ehemm..ehem…hahahahaha)…but a nice guy, selamba when making jokes..u don’t even know if he is making a joke cos of his facial _expression….and when you need help, always there to lend a hand….
Aziz…well…the old guy….hahahaha..my band mate, the guitarist in the band...got a very very manly voice..well…I didn’t say that…one of the girls in the office told me , he got this Hattan/Rahim Maarof type of voice( I still beat u though….2nd is better than 3rd..hehehehe)….blur giler….oh My God….u wont belief tahap blur this guy have..a joke will not be funny anymore after the 4th or 5th time u know….but he is a loving husband and father…his wife is one of the coolest lady I met….
Nordy…well….Lan A to Z looks alike (jangan marah pok..hahahaha)….cute guy…always get the ladies attention so when u are with him, it is likely that cute lady wearing the blue shirt is not checking u out….just that, most of the time, yang mengurat this guy are teenagers, belum akil baligh…hahahahah…..because of his size….kecik and cute je budak ni, cool guy, a singer, fancy himself as a hip hop and R&B singer..hahahahah…..he have a new “girlfriend”…white in colour….haven’t got the opportunity to take a spin in it yet…
Norma….my adik angkat…a lovable girl…aggressive girl….funny girl…and what I know…I will always be there for her….a fragile girl who is now maturing into a fine young lady indeed.....love his boyfriend to death….and that laugh…oh my god….that laugh……u have to hear it to believe it …..if Maya Karin needs a double for her Pontianak laugh….look no further….
My girl, my baby boo Sherie…. I love her….she is one hell of a strong minded woman. She can take care of herself, and she hates it if I can’t make my own decision. But she is a teddy bear at heart..heheheheh….very loveable and huggable.. she loves kids and I know she can’t wait to her own one day and I believe she will be a great mom one day…heheheheh…..I am ever so grateful that I met her and knowing that she is mine just makes me the happiest and luckiest man alive and with each passing day…. I love her more….
And her friends….I don’t know…..her friends….Aida, Nuyi, Cher, Fa, Zureen, Erina, Ani, Latape, Jack, Izwan, Nili, Leen, Shukri, and the list goes on and on and on…..this people accepted me into their life with open arms as if I have always been there…. I am here alone but so far I have never felt like I am…I am not the kind of guy who enters a room and just light it up with my charm and I must admit my social skills needs lots of improvement but so far they made my life here bearable and I know that I can always depend on them…..i have not felt out of place when I am around them(except maybe my slang still a bit too Sarawakian) and I hope one day I can repay all of them for being so kind to me…..that I promise……
Hmmm….so you see….my life is perfect…my life is not a failure cos I am blessed with all the people I mentioned…I know they are a lot more but…..please be assured…I may not write or say any thing about you in here….but what you mean to me is written in my heart…..I will never forget anyone that I met along the way so far in my life cos each and everyone one have given me something…. I may not like what I do, I may not have the car of my dreams but I have all this people around me, and I can’t ask for more…..
Your life is perfect if you make it perfect….your life is empty if you make it empty……think of what u have in your life and not what u don’t have…..
4 comments:
I had tears in m eyes reading this posting.. it's really sweet.. Your life is blessed.. guess each one of us keep wanting more.. something that we dont have that we forget what we do have depan mata and be thankful..
I hope you will find that job you love.. but nonetheless, you can always dream and be ambitious.. you gotta feel hungry and that will drive you forward. ;-)
always wants the best, always dream of something better but i just dont want to forget what i have. i think most of us always do. We always complain and whine over something we dont have but can life be perfect? we are always gonna be a little bit fat, a little bit dark, a little bit too loud, needs more money...we we think of all that, whatever is around us, our loved ones will just pass us by and we didnt even realise what they meant to us....i write this just too remind myself of how lucky i am to have what i have rite now...
p/s: didnt think this posting would make u cry...im sorry
I'm glad you feel that you are blessed. We have to bersyukur with what we have and always strive to be better. That Sherie is a lucky gurl to have someone who loves her a lot :-)
huhuhu..ada juak la aku temu urang klaka srawak time blogging..jarang gilak bah..anyway,keep up ur blogging..nice one i see..
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